I'M COMMITED TO HIM BUT STIL I DNT KNOW WHETHER I LOVE HIM OR NOT?

i'v been with this guy for 2 n half yrs. we lovd each othr vry much . he turned out to b too possesive ., too many issues, caste problems., opposition from family and we broke up. we are togather now after a year of stayin away. i trust him and i thnik i love him. but i dnt knw if we can stay like this forever hez frm a vry poor caste and my family wil never accept oour relationship also he works as a sales executive dosent even have a degree wen i'm da topper of mah class and doin higher education . i'm 21 and he is 24. i myself feel embarresd sometimes wen i think of marrying him in the futre. at the same time i cant stay away from him. past one year when i was widot him i cried like a mad ,shoutd at evryone ,tried killing myself ,faild, even my health was bad. now that we are togather i am happy but i dont know how many dayz this is gonna happen. my family wil kill me if they come to know that i and my guy are togather again. he loves me and i can trust him but i hate it wen he keeps asking money from me. he has to pay many family loans and he has many responiblities of family. der is stong opposition from his family too. dey would kill us both if dey come to know of it. i'm confused n keep thninkg about all this. i thnik i'm going mad please help me.